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Escapism

2008-10-19T02:22:00.000-07:00

Someday, I'd love to go to this place with you.

Wouldn't it be nice if only you could be in serenity with your lover,
just the two of you?

Well, I can't believe I'm saying this, but:
I'm looking forward for school tml!
Wheeee?
I don't know why,
when I was in my primary school,
I used to DREAD to go there,
I would complan to my mum about how much my stomach hurts,
when it really doesn't.

But now in Secondary,
I love going to school,
its probably because of new freinds,
the sense of security they give me,
and the teachers are somewhat a whole lot better at slacking!
I've really met some loyal friends,
really need to thank them so profusely.
And also, being with me for so long, Cecilia (:
She's great to be with-
thick-skinned, funny, lovable.
All packed into a package,
she's my bestest friend in the entire world.

But this doesn't mean that I forgottened my old friends!
I still rmb them (:
They're carved in my heart,
and just like Jordin Sparks, Tattoo-
"You're still apart of everything I do, You're in my heart just like a Tattoo."
The old babes who gave me so much memories,
Huiting, Cheryl F., Litong, Jasmine, Shirin, Charmaine,
and many many others.

But the best about being in Secondary is,
a whole new life,
discovering a whole new you.
And the other half you're finding.
Really, it's just like a treasure hunt,
going through difficulties with nature,
beating all odds,
but still, within
you'll find the one you're looking for.
you may think its an ordinary one,
but deep inside every,
there's something special.
time had made me found out what was special about the "gem" i had found.

Okay... What I had written makes no sense!

Labels: Today was boring as we had cancelled our outing, thats why I'm blogging.

saranghaeyo, iloveyou.

2008-10-18T19:07:00.000-07:00

sian bar?
here's a lil someting something i got from friendster:

ENGLISH ; i love you
POLISH ; ja kocham cibie
FRENCH ; je t'aime
HINDI ; hum tumhe pyar karte hae
CZECH ; miluji te
SLOVAKIAN ; lu'bim ta
ITALIAN ; ti amo
UKRAINIAN ; ya tebe kahayu
GERMAN ; ish libe dish
CHINESE ; wo ai ni
GREEK ; s' agapo
HAWAIAN ; aloha wau ia oi
LITHUIANIAN ; tav myliu
KOREAN ; sa rang hae yo
JAPENESE ; aishiteru
ROMANIAN ; te ubsec
BOSNIAN ; volim te
ALBANIAN ; te dua
FILIPINO ; mahal kita
SPANISH ; te quiero
PORTUGESE ; amo te
ARABIAN ; annah be hebic

Will be useful in the future i suppose?
nothing special going on these days,
just everyday seeing the guys playing GunZ,
everyday!
Suppose, i'm gonna get influenced soon!
Oh goshhh?

With the touch your hands,
tender loving care.

This love chemistry can blow up the place

2008-10-16T03:20:00.000-07:00

Yes I've been love struck,
and it has been since longgggg ago.

Had fun today,
we had 2 assemblies,
one about cyber awareness, and another on olympic.
was trying to sleep,
but the teachers were looking...

Then went to Science Centre :D
played alot of things,
can say that we, the pack, were damn enthu!
was fine at the starting,
but Nicholas lost his phone!
Sadded for him ):
Anyone found his found pleaseeeeeeee,
return.
Called his hp a ga-gillion times,
but no one answered.
among 3 were cut down.

Hope he's alright with his parents,
and I hope his parents aren't so strict to him ):
They always are ...
God Bless {:

Then played at nic's house,
with haohe.
they played Gunz (again)
Then nic tried to suffocate me,
which didn't work of course,
but really, i was gagging.

Bid farewell to haohe at the station,
then me and nic took bus.
i alighted,
and he was on the way to his grandma house.

The hugs were worthwhile.

Open your heart, let love start.

2008-10-15T03:31:00.000-07:00

Now playing: On The Way Down - Ryan Carbrera
"And on the way down, I saw you and you saved me from myself.
And I won't forget the way you loved me
And on the way down almost fell right through but I held onto you...."

Today went out with the guys, haohe & nicholas.
Went spiderweb playground, and they dueled yu-gi-oh.
*smirks*
Had fun there,
ran all around around arounddddd!
They got my hp, that's why :/

Then went to Yew Tee iEcon,
The guys went there to buy their game cards,
I have to stand there and wait wait wait.
Then the uncle ask if I was nic's gf,
cause i was like, right behind him?
Lame yerrr?
Then obviously is deny luh, which is true!

Hahs, then went nic's house.
played Gunz for very long,
then went to lot one and found the Chan twins :D
Fun luh today (:

the thought of beaches... sitting and watching the sunset, staying out late night at the beach with girlfriends and enjoying the breeze.. the smell of the sea that enters through my nose and gets me smiling to myself once again..watching up the sky filled with many pretty sparkly stars that makes the night feel special.. Playing with colourful candles and sparkles that gets the night all romantic and when i reach the door step of my house, right before my very eyes is a love letter and a bunch of roses. How about a love song dedicated by the guy in my dreams? there he sits by the stairs, waiting for my return. mmmmm.. This will be a dream, okay wait, this IS a dream.

i really want to know whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy....
why, why do i have this feeling when i talk to you..
when i talk to you it gets me staring into the walls as i smile to myself.
i'll always ask myself ,what's this feeling that tickles me pink.
but at the end of the day, the answer will be found and its because i really and truely love you.

Romeo, save me.

2008-10-11T04:20:00.000-07:00

Sorry for not blogging these few days!
I've been grounded (yes, it's true)!
That's really sadded, yeah?

yeahs, also don't call/sms my hp anymore,
because it's been confiscated.
Cause my parents will be checking ALL my messages before they tell me.
But if it's important, just send and pray hard my parents tell me.

It's pure agony I tell you!
Living without my hp.
But I suppose I'm getting use to it, ...
Eh, probably not!
I'd still secretly look through the messages if my parents aren't at home,
because I know where they are hiding my handphone,
obvious (DUH).
So i think I'll reply messages within 3 days max.

Yesterday,
I went out with Cecilia, Caroline, Sara, Nicholas, Peising & Taolong.
Yeahs, went BPP.
Me, cecilia, Sara and Peising did our IPW,
rmb 1-6(sians), we're suppose to hand in this monday!
So happy can see my friends during my grounding.
I mean, I've begged my parents to let me go!
Happy to see Cecilia, Caroline & Nic bahs?
4 days not going to sch, that'll be hard.

My hp songs are all transferred into my MP3 (Finally!).

Baby & Sully are really annoying me now,
not that I don't love them anymore,
they've been fighting the whole day today,
difficult to stop them.
God Bless.

Ohyeahs, missed church today.
Sad, mum thinks that I'll go to another place rather than church.
Hey! I love choir, and I go church for it!

Photographs of my Baby, handsome ain't he?

I feel that life isn't the way it should be now if I didn't have you around.
Eventhough you always spoil the mood,
and eventhough being annoying is yr forte,
I'd always love you.
And you know I do.

Little did I know
that you were going to be my Romeo.
(ahhhh love)

I hope our story wouldn't end the way as Romeo & Juliet,
but I would love it to start like that.

This love is really difficult,
but at least we both know it's true,
and it's real.

PS: I have no idea why my notes are getting shorterrrr.

Dancing is for life. Singing is for eternity (:

2008-10-05T03:13:00.000-07:00

Woah!
Just got bak from church, .
Fun lehh!

Got choir session (:
The others there sang real well!

Played MPS,
rebirthed once :/
in 2 hours okayyyyyys!

My character won the Unique&Sexy event holded by a GM.
I was like, "OMFFFFFG! I WON FIRST?!"
Then prize was 200 white scrolls (:
So funn (:
I was not sexayyye okay?
I was cute&unique! ;DD
With an extra cute Duckyyyy hat! ;DD

Yeah, Babylin you ruleeee!
Also changed my pet nameee,
which was not shown?
Eh, you all know also will laugh.
LOL.

You're one in a million.
It's difficult to find you,
I mean really,
the world ain't small.
If we didn't make the mistakes we had during our 12 years previously,
during the 13th,
we wouldn't have met each other.
Yay-ness?
This implies to all my darling friends out there ;D

Fate can be cruel, or can be so sweet.
Actually what we do is all up to us (:
Make the right choices,
and make sure you have a wonderful childhood to tell yr children and grandchildren about ;D
I know I'm being wayyyy to advance,
but hey?
Don't you want to get married someday older?

Are you trustable?

2008-10-04T05:11:00.000-07:00

I'm bored!
I've been looking through blogshops the whole day,
finding just two items.
Just two!
And I still can't find anyyyy!

I was finding a star backpack from the SkyBlue bag spree.
And a braided hair hairband.

Ghee, actually wanted to go out and do project.
But due to examinations,
all my schedules flyyyyyy~

Okays, ya'll.
This is a short post!

Princess Diaries

2008-09-30T04:16:00.000-07:00

Will be watching Princess Diaries later at 7.30pm.
I sometimes do wonder how it really feels living under royalty,
having servants and maids attending to you 24/7,
having a specialized cook to cook any delicacies.
Wow, awesome!

第一次见到你，觉得你不顺眼
对你没什么好感，
自从我每见到你，你都对我笑，
在这个时候我开始爱上了你。
没见到你时，都会默默的想念着你，
这样的，每天都喜欢你多一些。
很想对你说声我爱你，
却怕你和我之间的感情会有危险。
想不到，过了这么久，
我才发觉您多想我生命中的天使似的，
默默地为我做了这么多。

Wow, this made my brain hurts with all the hanyupinyin writing.

想念在一起的快乐(:

2008-09-30T03:26:00.000-07:00

Overall today was uber perfect (:

No mishaps or anything.
Safety was the priority.

But only one thing happened?
A bunch of my clique-ies got scolded by ah kong ):
"I very dissapointed in you, first when I saw you in January you looked like a leader,
blahblahblah, and now? Blahblahblah."
Shan't elaborate, today is suppose to be a perfect day for me manzxzxzxz!

Day started with flag raising in class,
cos of the lightning warning stuff.
then had a boring maths class,
chatted whole day with darling cecilia? :D
Then had geography, but Mdm. Siti didn't come !
Awwwhzxzxz, hope she's alright ?

Then other subjects, slacking really.
Didn't care much,
my brain just can't tune itself to the exam mood.
It's still on holiday I presume?

During English was fun fun fun!
Sang happy birthday songs for Ms. Low.
Her birthday is tml., Hari Raya O.O
She's turning 23 I presume?
The boys say she's kinda old.
Well, I think not.
She's young and pretty ;D

Oh yes, Selamat Hari Raya Eve to all the muslims (:

I missed the days we were together,
I missed the days we had each other.
Perhaps jealousy took over you,
I didn't know I had you for a friend,
who would do funny things behind my back.
*STAB* That's worse.

Labelling you as my best was hard,
but you've betrayed me now and then,
and still, have been a copy cat.
I've asked you certain times why,
you just replied everyone can do the same.
I actually really wanted to slap/scold you,
but our few months of time together still lingers.
I'm trying so hard to forgive you.
But it's just that my heart can't take it anymore.

Fuck this shit.
I don't knwo what's coming over you.
Or how we fell apart.
I tried so hard, but I still don't believe in you.
You're not the girl I knew fromt he start.

When times change, people change...
I wonder if I did?

ILOVEYOU♥

Love is for losers, I guess I'm one of them.

2008-09-27T03:38:00.000-07:00

Taken by my darling cecilia :D

Ysd, I had my Chinese Paper(s).
Well, didn't really did a good job at studying.
Cos i realised, everything I studied didn't come out?!
awwww, shit manzxzxzxzxz.
just please please lemme pass my chinese!
I don't want go NA for goodness sake, or retain.
I've started studying for all my other subjects already (:
These few days, until exams are over, I'm gonna mug till I drop!

Eh? I spy who?
I spied Taolong, so cute siahzxzxzxz!
Shuai bo?

I gave taolong see this pic, he still say very nice siah (:
I'm a good photographer, i guess?

Ysd played with the clique, like usual (:
Then we played vehicles and pedestrians.
The game was like, on the swimg two ppl swinging in different directions.
We need to cross from one end to another, without getting hit by the vehicles.
But sadly, two ppl got hurt ):
Firstly was that taolong.
Then was peising :/
Haish, hope they're okay?

Chatted with benson and taolong at night on the phone.
Crappy siah they.

Taolong: oi Benson, what type of girls you like ar?
Benson: Aiyah, Idk leis.
Taolong: Tell me lah, I help you find :DD
Benson: Aiyah, i don't like any girls. Don't need help me.
Taolong: Eh, don't tell me you're gay wor!
Benson: Yah! TAOLONG ILOVEYOUUUUUUUUUU!
Taolong: Eeyer, I don't know I have this kind of friend.
*Silence*
Benson: TAOLONG ILOVEYOUUUUU!
Taolong: BENSON I DON'T LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUU!

They made me laugh till i gonna die liaozxzxzxz.
Cute mans.

Ohyeah, to nicholas & haohe, sorry for sleeping halfway through the phone call on midnight.
was like, really tired yozzzxzxzz.

MUGMUGMUGMUGMUG, MUG TILL I DROP!

It's yr love that sets me free.

2008-09-25T03:19:00.000-07:00

MUGGING~
EXAMS.

Due to exams, I think I'll not be posting often anymore (:
Sorry. But it's for my own good ):

I'm seriously missing you. When can you call?!

2008-09-21T04:41:00.000-07:00

Sian siahs.
I seriously missing my friends,
and I'm totally missing him.
ahhs, need to endure a few more hours till sch tml!
I've been itching to dance, few weeks without dancing.
Going to a month.
I wished I'd never said that idea to my mum.
I'm rotting, I'm dieing.

Btw, :D
I got this from Peising's blog.
Followed the link,
It is something about what yr name means.
So here's mine (:
Underlined are those what I think I am (:

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.
You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited...
which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often
get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

recappings.

2008-09-21T00:43:00.001-07:00

Thursday, 18 Sept '08

Eh? Thurday was the normal typical day in sch.
Had science practical.
Aryanty! My lab partner.
Camwhore-d with her in the lab (:
Love her loadds. She had a perfect smiley face!

Friday, 19 Sept '08

School was same same.
Don't feel like remembering how many times the teachers screamed at us.
Really, they said 1-6 was useless.
Well, not our problem?

Played with the peeps.
They went to buy the bullet gun.
Lame, they kept playing.

And something horrible happened that made me cry ):
But in the end, there was happy ever afters ;D

Saturday, 20 Sept '08

I do look wierd!

Went with Cecilia to Lot one,
window-shopped.
Went to arcade, saw haozhi.
He was like so chubby, same as before.
But i very good, never pinch! ;D
His friends are like... OMG, paikia.
I tell Cecilia I want quickly get away.

Then haohe called,
went find him and junming.

then yadadada. took bus to junming's hse.
see them do their project.
I very extra there :/
I camwhored then.
with the NCC Cap (:

then reached home around 7.30pm+
after dinner, went out again.
went for barbecue (:

nice siah the food,
I mean really, ...
think, prawn on cheese!
& sotong on cheese.
Wow niceeee!

Then went to play badminton with charmaine, enid and other unknown people.
played till around 10pm+.
then went back to the barbecue.

We were like listening to ghost stories.
Scare the wits out of me.
Thanks charmaine for suggesting it ==
She was like saying the ghost in swiss.
she sai there's this girl..
ahhs, i don't want say.
SCARYYYYY.

then went home at around 11.30+

chatted with nicholas on the phone till around 2 ><
sleepy?

Sunday, 21 Sept '08

Today I'm planning on staying at home and rot.
actually nic asked me out today,
but in the end, he i busy.
gahhhs, stay at homeee!
ROT TILL LIKE SIAOOOO~

what you said was the sweetest things i had ever heard.
I couldn't believe it!
And i think you've finally showed yr feelings (:

Random...

2008-09-17T04:52:00.001-07:00

I'm bored.

Today went to swing.
Very heng never see the lunatic.

played with the guys.
yadadada.
Joked around with tao long,
his face always seem so red :/
LOL!
Okay lah, he is very cute.
his singing also very good,
maybe i found a new singing partner ;DD
Now i need to know who he likes, so i can sabo him :/

After that nothing really happened anyways.
Saw chelsie at swing.
Said hi then bye ):

It's not worth risking something for someone,
I know it, i've tried before.
It succeded, but still, it failed.

You should know you had succes in making me do everything i never wanted to.
But to me, this was closure.
You knew I love you, but do you love me too?

I can swear that everytime I see you,
my heart flutters.
And everytime I see you smile at any silly mistake or joke that I did,
I'll laugh along.

Everytime I tried to use the corners of my eyes to look at you,
you always spied it,
& smile at me.
I don't know if you're being sarcastic or something,
but thankyou (:

PS: Sorry for the short post! >< To Chelsie & Yixiu:
Preetayes, thanks for the supports. I also know that all this kind of things are abit out of hand, it's just I can't help it. As i have said, I love him like mad, like he's just like a packet of ecstasy- addictive. I know I can be lame at times, but yah, i caould repeat this over & over again- THANKYOU ARIGATOU! TI AMO (: ♥

Funny things happened today.

2008-09-16T02:11:00.000-07:00

It's been long since I've blogged?
didn't really had the mood these fews days :/
Yah, i mean really!
I have occasional mood swings.
And these few days I'm not really at my best.

Thanks Yixiu, Chelsie & Huiting ♥ for cheering me up.
Giving their concerns to me (:
They are really such dearies.
I love them lots (:

Today in school didn't really have anything.
So don't want to elaborate.
One whole day sitted with Cecilia, without Nicholas.
Ahhh, seat-mate! You're away from me ):
apparently, I saw him and arjun gaying? O.O
LOL.

After school, went to the swing.
Played for awhile.
then got one siao siao twss sec 3 guy there.
made me scared till i want die luh.
he followed me and nicholas everywhere O.O
then he spoke to me in japanese.
I was like " HUH?! "
Cos, i didn't expect him to talk to me.
Then i went to one side to sit, he come up and ask me
" Can you be my friend? "
I dio shocked, I look at nicholas, andre, haohe & johnathan.
I kept laughing, then that guy asked
" Very funny ah? "
I say " Nonononono! "
Then continued laughing.
Then he said something, I ignored.
I quickly go find the guys :/

Dio scared.

Then after awhile,
that guy go away le.
then we sitting under the playground.
Got one uncle come ask us " You all want buy smoke? "
Me and haohe stared at him
Say nononono.
Nicholas was listening to music, then we told ni.
Nic turned and saw the uncle.
The uncle say he sell cheap, $6 for malboro.
We say we don't smoke.
Then he go already, we were like looking at each other,
"We look like gangsters meh? O.O"

Then HMT released le,
Cecilia they all came.
I met a new friend :D
I think his name is Tao Long bah?
He very cute siahhhhh!
Fringe long long long de,
then is like, so cute!
He got baby baby face (:
He kept sabo me & benson,
for no reasons.

I'm in a deep fright.
Afraid I'll lose you,
not in an advanced kind of way, but as friends.
I'm afraid of breaking the trust in our friendship.
You broke my trust, but I don't care.
Yr trust can be built easily.
I have no idea why am I so persistent, to him.
I really don't know.
Love can make you do things that is crazy.

Seeing you from a distance was a great bother.
Be back? Alrights?

do you knwo when you said "I'm not suitable to be yr friend."
I was heartbroken?
I can choose my own friends, and I chose you.
You can be my friend for whatever I like.
Don't just let some conflicts break us apart.
But this is what I'm afraid of.

I feel like breaking down.

Sickeningggg.

2008-09-12T05:04:00.000-07:00

No mood again today.
Seriously...
Had a bad fight with ________.

Sadded...

Sometimes things don't turn out the way you want it to be.
The whole world is full of backstabbers.
Some seducing others' crushes.
Why would they be that sick?

Turns out, maybe that guy was enjoying it.
All the attention.
I have no idea.

Now it's time to let go,
and I know its going to be hard.
I've never thought I would say this,
but I want to forget you.
This has never came to my mind before,
but now, it just did.
Being by yr side was both happiness and misery.
You made me laugh, you made me cry.
But I promise that you will never be replaced & erased.

Why didn't I think before I spoke?
I should had listened to that voice inside of me.
I might had been crazy, stupid,
to say the kind of things I said before.

I know I'm just a fool.

PS: Not refering to anyone in particular.

All teachers only know how to scold :/

2008-09-11T02:52:00.000-07:00

everyday, living so eerie-ly.
teachers only know how to scold!
why can't they be like my previous teachers?!
i loved them to bits.

Today really nothing happened...
First half of school was slacking, totally!
Ms Maz didn't come!
zzz, no home ec!
WTF?#%%^%^**(*@!
Then the stupid 2nd relief tchr,
darn bitchhhhh!
She go scold scold scoldddd!
scold nic they all.
Sadded )):

after that was all total scoldings!
History, didn't do homework.
English, only lesson with no scoldings ;D

After that was PC,
prayed for nic friendyy!
too bad he still got tio-ed for the thingyy ):

Then, was science remedial.
Obviously got scolded.
Need to redo my WHOLE theory wkbk.
Smlj is this?!
From page 1 to page 130++
Fucking shit!
Stayed till around 5+ to do finish ):
Thanks sara and xiangting for helping me do!

Then went out of sch,
saw nic, peising, benson & arjun.
chatted awhile, (:
benson very irritating, keep sabotaging me & YOU-KNOW-WHO
obviously nic.
okay then, irritating!

Sorry these few days no pic,
really no time to take some photos ):
Okay i took some, didn't want to upload .
:/

Bone is damn pain,
if really like this few more days,
i need to go x-ray :/
Sickeningggg!

Later have keyboard then tuition :/
GAHHHHHS!

What will it take to make you smile & laugh?
Other than seeing me breaking down.
I don't really care anymore,
since we both know that the only thing we can be is friends (:
but i will still hold on to the hope that one day, maybe
we'll be together (:
okay, i don't like to go that far.
just friends is already fine (:

baby i love you, and i'll never ever let you go.
but if i have to, boy i hope that you should know,
the love that we made, will never be erased.
and i promise that you will never be replaced <3

Lovely dahling tootie tootie boyyy,
I've changed so much for you,
even when never expected anything from you.
And i can repeat this all over again & again,
but what I do always is because of you (:

The world seems like everybody's breaking down.
even me, i think.
But i hope that my dreams will become reality.

I want you to know that you are the only one for me.
I want to stick with you forever <3

Severed ties & a Brokened heart

2008-09-09T04:02:00.000-07:00

Monday, ysd nothing happened.
hand in my home ec file,
and my history file.

Today,
i have really no mood to talk about today.
A rollercoaster ride...
went up up up, then to my horror, down the max and i died.
seriously my heart is dead.

cried cried cried cried cried.
i didn't even know why i wasted my tears!
hand bone structure a little bit altered from a fall.
damn fucking pain.
sorry for my language today,
i'm really in a bad mood...

Severed ties & a Brokened heart.
There's nothing I could really do, that could take the pain away.
My heart snatched away like cookie monster snatched away a cookie.
i don't know why i'm so foolish in the first place.
to even even (!) cry cry cry.
trying my best to change for you.
but how?!
it's difficult, but i'll try.
For my sake.

I've thought of forgetting you.
but hey? why must i?
I want you to stay in my mind.
Everyday I'll be thinking of you.

Kaimin kaimin kaimin!
Be strong,
soon you'll cry yr last tears.
If he doesn't care for you when you need him most.
he's not fit for you when you're at yr best!

STAY STRONG!
WIPE THE TEARS, MOVE ON.
AND SMILE! ((:

whole day of mapling? O.O

2008-09-06T04:53:00.001-07:00

Maple maple mapleeee!

So whole day was playing maple?
No need bother looking in maplesea, cos I was playing private server, ParadiseMS.
Booooh.
Quality time-d with xShotGun & SetMeFree Peepos! ;DD
then, with haohe listening ear.
...

Stayed at home,
rotting~
Didn't really update blog much now.
Really not in the mood :/

Haven't print Home Ec.
Haven't do literature.
Haven't even done one of the homework.
Wow, the next day is going to be a rush for me!!!
Shiok ~

Tmr, there's a new DCOM (Disney Channel original Movie)!
CAMP CAMP CAMP ROCKKKKKK!
I can't wait to watch!
I was waiting this long for it!
Now it's finally here.

And yeah, anyone want to jio me out on 25 Oct?
High School Musical 3: The Senior Year opens on that day!
Wheeeeee~

Approx.1 month, it'll be twinney's birthday.
I'm searching for the best
present for her!

Approx. 1 month, it'll be jasmine babe's birthday,
searching searching for a prezzie!

Approx. 2 more months, it's his
bithday!
Please help me think of a birthday presenttttt!~

Darling,
can't you feel how much i feel for you now?
the time i joked around with you,
the times we shed tears for each other.
you should have felt something, didn't you?
i don't know why i love you so much,
others might think you're not what i think of you.
but i don't care.
i believe beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
no other guy can match to you.
so sweetie darling baby boy, iloveyou.
iloveyo iloveyou iloveyou.

lame-d around. Ouch!

2008-09-03T03:58:00.000-07:00

I'm so random! (After a performance)

02 September

I wished, & i wished.
And it really did came true.
My dear, you're finally alright.
I wish you will not give me such a scare anymore.

Had supplimentries, yah.
Then in maths,
Ms. Ong let us eat.
Wierd, how can she be that good?

Then went to swing,
talked about some lame stuffs.
Talking about how did i sacrifice.
and there was this pervertic uncle there.
yadada,
won't elaborate furthur.

Today, 03 September

I tried to get out of house early,
and succedded :DD

then played at the treehse with peising & haohe.
gave peising some vocal lessons.
I'm totally addicted to fall for you now!

waited for andre & nicholas.

about a few hours later,
nicholas said he reached.
then we wanted to go find nic,
then nic was like damn angry,
saying that he reached treehse.
I was like so shocked!
I quickly ran back to treehse.
And i didn't know i ran like lightning,
cos i left peisingand haohe,
panting at the back, trying to catch up.
finally i found nicholas on the top of the treehse.
he vandalised, yadadada.
then he had a new phone, asked him to show to me, he didn't want to.
so i took his bag, and walked everywhr with it.
okay i was hugging it.
but don't think it in the pathetic way!

then andre reached.
we walked around.
talked talked talked.
then i saw nic phone,
was nice :DD

then i still was with his bag,
nic ask me give it back to him.
so i asked him to promise that he will not pon the next supplementry.
so he sweared,
but with crossies.
then we hook our pinkies, so he can't do anything.
then i give him his bag, he went away.
i was damn upset at him (!)

but still, he was such a dear to come back (:
he went for the supplementry too (:

then went BPP with them.
walked in the rain.
and i swear, i'm never going to do that again!
It's so sickening!
URGH!
when reached BPP,
i was shivering & had a cold,
sneezing all the way!~
we went to food court to eat.
bought tom-yam noodle with andre & nic,
thought it would make me feel warmer.
apparently it didn't.
ghee(!), i wasted my money on that.

then walked around BPP,
remembered the first time "The Incident" happened.
shall not elaborate on it.

then walked home in the rain (again)
took bus,
yadadada.
i knocked to a glass door.
had cuts on my leg,
blahhhhhs.
and a big bump of my ~~fucking~~ head.
...

the best thing about these days is that we're not fighting anymore.
you're showing more concern than before.
we knew that we could make that happen,
but we didn't want to,
just to prevent ourselves from being hurt.
and i swear, boy,
i think i'm falling for you over again.
& again.

i missed you.
and i had found you reasonably cute these days.
i have no idea,
but yes,
i really love you.
and i really want to wish you well.

i could repeat the words over & over again to you.
and i wish you could too.
"Baby, I love you."
Aishiteru, boy.

Walking around the placessss!

2008-09-01T05:01:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was my bro's 4th birtdhay.
So let's say a big big,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTIN CHONG!

today, went out with a bunch of one-sixpeeps.
Cecilia, Peising, Chelsie, Arjun, Sebast, Nicholas, Haohe & Suntha.
Then saw Caroline & some one-three peeps.

We went to the arcade to find the guys first,
then when they going to watch movie,
we went off to wonder. (Guess what they watched? WALL. E!)
Actually, went to library~
Made alot of noise there. But the librarian never chase us out! ;DD
We were like, sabotaging people to people.
funny lah~

Then went food junction to eat.
The boys came out of cinema already.
Then we kept looking for them.
Gahhhhhhs!
Saw haohe only, then saw the other boys.
then, we girls & boys went our seperate ways.

but then, we go find nic, haohe & arjun.
at CCK park.
we were there playing sand, yadadada~
the boys were pathetic with the swinging thing (:

Then arjun went home,
nic & haohe went yewtee.
the girls pei-ed me to buy earring.
i kept deciding to buy buttoned earrings (not button, but studdly buttons)
but then i bought two of another sort of earring.
next time i'm going to buy the magnetic one!
nice okay?!

then went around, saw dion.
~~~~~

then chelsie went home, peising too.
we went to find caroline.
then, we joked around at KFC.
nothing to do actually after that.

but then, we saw haozhi when buying old chang kee.
haozhi and his bro's gang.
i was like, the guys' skinnies, NICE!
got one skinny is tealed colour, nice okays?!
i didn't really look at them.
but i can feel that they looking at cecilia ;DD
cecilia, not bad uhh, you so pretty, can attract ;DD

then we went busstop,
waited for haozhi to come.
he keep calling caroline his "laopo" LOL!
me & cecilia kept sabotaging.

today didn't manage to print the home ec.
because of the block's renovation work.
damn suay lah!
i wonder if i'll get scolded ...
i wonder if i'll get nicholas in trouble too...
scared scared scareddddd!~

You're my love and i swear I'll never do anything to get you into trouble.
I'll try my hardest to help and get you out of the troubled times.
Because i love you so much.
And i swear no matter what I do,
it's always because of you.

you may call me foolish, you may call me blind.
but everything i did was out of love.
to be with you,
i'll search for you even in the toughest of weathers.
and i really hope you do appreciate what i did for you, boy.
because of you, i'm willing to give up my dreams,
and be by yr side,
to help you move on step by step in this secondary life.

i know that we will not be forever.
i don't even know if i'll like you still in the older times later on.
but i know for sure now that you're my Mr. right,
the one that i've always been looking for.
& everything has to be about us.
So don't take me for granted anymore.

Quiz (:

2008-08-31T01:25:00.000-07:00

1. The person who tag you is.
Lim Pei Sing (:

2. Your relationship with him/her is.
Good friends ;D

3. Your five impression of him/her.
Clever & chiobu (:

4.The most memorable thing he/she had done for you.
Let's seee... There's alot.
I can't remember any :O

5.The most memorable thing he/she had said to you.
"Hello!" ;DD

6.If he/she become your lover, you will...
Love her. But it'll never happen, unless I'm bi-sexual.

7. If he/she become your lover, the thing he/she has to improve on will be...
If i love someone, i should love him/her the way he/she is.
So I think she's perfect (:

8.If he/she become your enemy, you will...
Never gonna happen.

9.If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be..
Have you ever heard of never gonna happen?

10.The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is.
Nothing...

11.Your overall impression of him/her is.
Sweet, brainiac.

12.How you think people around you will feel about you.
No idea.

13.The characters you love about yourself are.
I'm a pathetic person, and I'll get happy at the very random of times. ;DD

14.On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are.
I'm lazy, & I can't seem to get anything rigt.

15.The most ideal person you want to be is.
Me, Myself & I.

16.For people that care and like you, say something to them.
Thanksyouuuuu!

17.Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you pass to people that have blog only.
1.Jermaine
2.Charmaine
3.Nicholas
4.Johnathan
5.Haohe
6.Cecilia
7.Andre
8.Yixiu
9.Benson
10.Huiting

If you're lazy, you don't have to do (:

18.Who is no.6 having relationship with?(Cecilia)
She's, uhh, single?
But i know who likes her ;DD

19.Is no.9 a male or female?(Benson)
Male (:

20.If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?(Andre and Huiting)
Nopes. They don't even know each other.

21.What is no.2 studying about?(Charmaine)
Whatever I'm studying in sch.

22.When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?(Nicholas)
Yesterday.

23.What kind of music band does no.8 like?(Yixiu)
I'm not sure ...

24.Does no.1 have any siblings?(Jermaine)
Yeah (: One brother!

25.Will you woo no.3?(Nicholas)
I'm not sure! So confusedddd!

26.How about no.7?(Andre)
No way! He's my friend's!

27.Is no.4 single?(Johnathan)
Yeaps. So anyone want to jio him just tell me! ;DD

28.What is the surname of no.5?(Haohe)
Chen! Chen haohe!

29.What 's the hobby of no.10?(Huiting)
Alot? Maybe one is floorball?

30.Does no.5 and 9 get along well?(Haohe & Benson)
Somesort. But Benson always spear haohe.

31.Where is no.2 studying at?(Charmaine)
BPGHS ;DD

32.Talk something casually about no.1.(Jermaine)
She's my twinny!

33.Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?(Yixiu)
Nopeeeeee!

34.Where does no.9 live at?(Benson)
Not sure? I think around bp there?

35.What colour does no.4 like?(Johnathan)
Not sure? Maybe pink?

36.Are no.5 and 1 best friend?(Haohe & Jermaine)
They don't know each other!

37.Does no.1 have any pets?(Jermaine)
Nopeeeee!

38.Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?(Andre)
Not in my view, but he thinks he is.

39.What is no. 10 doing now?(Huiting)
Not sure? On MSN?

CROSS COUNTRY!

2008-08-29T03:06:00.000-07:00

I got my results yesterday,
it was quite okay (:
I think i did quite well (:

English - 66.4 B3
Chinese - 60.5 B4
Maths - 85.0 A1
Science - 63.1 B4
Geog. - 80.0 A1
History - 63.0 B4
Literature - 82.7 A1
Home Econ - 70.0 A2

PICTURES BELOW (:

Today I had my first annual cross country run!
And it turned out GREAT!
Thanks, the rain, for not pouring!

In the morning, met with Cecilia, Caroline, and some 1/3 peeps,
met so early you know?
I woke at 6.45am, they want meet at 6.15am.
I chiong-ed all the way find them.

went to the bus stop to wait for the bus.
When 180 came, we boarded. (Well, duh?)
then half-way, i want to vomit :/
was like, damn irritating luh.
& jackson was like, keep sabo-ing me with this guy.
Idioticccccc!

When reach the jap garden, we strolled strolled strolled.
Finally they opened the gates for us (:
So went in, & guess what i saw?
The history statue of Admiral Zheng which was on our history textbook!

I was looking around see if nicholas and gang reached yet,
and they arrived quite late ):

Race was about to start,
NERVOUS!

Then, C division girls, that's the Sec one & two girls, were the first to run the race!
We were at the starting line.
then when they blow the whistle or something, we ran. (Obviously.)

I run run run,
actually was with Cecilia they all, then they walked,
so i started running by myself.
so i run, look at the scenery.
then i told myself, "I can do it! Want to faint, faint at finishing point!"
then run, i overtook alot ppl.
Was so like tired, tried walking a few steps,
but they still ended up as a run.
Then when i hear foot steps i sped-up...
then nearly finishing point, i chiong-ed!
i saw alot ppl there, thought i will get like 50+ position,
then eventually when i took my card number,
I got 20! ;DDDD
I couldn't believe it!
Was like so happy!
I rushed to my place to sms my mum.
She was a little dissappointed though,
as she was a pro runner, always get top 3rd,
but hey? I gave my best shot (:

After that,
went back to TWPS!
Was like, damn happy lurh.
Saw the previous TWP-ians peeps!
Went to IT resource,
played with darren and lokteng (:
So miss them!
Many were shocked that I don't look like my primary sch self,
LOL!

Overall, I had a fun fun fun & tiring day!
And i can't wait for next year's cross country!
I'm aiming for top 10 position! XD

Scenery when we reached there. Dark right?

The whole bunch of CCKSS, from Sec 1 to 5.

After the run, my trophy! ;DD

I know i look like an idiot,
but focus on the trophy!

you were great today,
even if you didn't got the top.
but you did great (:

Benson ran quite fast today,
if i'm correct he got 23rd! WOOTS! ;DDD
congratulated him !
HAHS! (:

& special grats to those who ran the race!
We all did great! ;DDDD

No matter what happens to you,
I'll stand by you.
I'll be your umbrella if the rain falls,
I'll be your blanket if you're cold.
Why would i want to do all these?
It's because i love you too much,
and I can't bear to see you in harm.

chinese lesson rants!

2008-08-27T04:56:00.000-07:00

MY BALLET SHOES ARE MISSING!
HOW TO DANCE TML?!

today we where head-to-head with the chinese teacher again!
was like so fun!
and today, i've found a new hero!
NICHOLASSSSSSS!
so brave sioh?
he's my herooooo! ;D

so starting of the day was quite boring...
Literature, then EL.
Ms Low didn't come~

then chinese!
wahseh!
the teacher was like, making us stand stand stand.
fuck lah, my leg injured still ask me stand.
wtf is that?!
stand then stand lah!
then, was like the boys were playing.
the same: nicholas, andre, baey, sebast.
(Johnathan didn't come to sch today)
was like, they were damn funny lah.
then teacher ask us stop talking, but who cares?!
then i think the teacher provoked nicholas,
then nic said this :

Ahnanana! China very big country okay?
Singapore is just a small dot, how can win you?
And Singapore won silver nia, you all won gold.
Want show-off go back china lah bitch!

BRAVO NICHOLAS!
MY VERY HEROOOOO!
I was like....
wanted to laugh, sarcastic lah .
then teacher angry at nic, ask him come out of his seat.
so nic go out, and glared at teacher.
and cos nic was taller, he looked down on the teacher and said:
"Simi lan jiao?"
then go back to his seat.
Everyone in the class bursted into peals of laughter!
then teacher was like, face damn red lorh!

then after that was CCA,
DANCEDANCEDANCE!
Had rehearsals for the performance tml!
Sadly, my group is performing for Sec 2 & 4 & 5.
Sadded luh, i want to perform for Sec 1 & 3...

at the last rehearsal, i was laughing all the way through the dance.
cos i saw cecilia & caroline.
was like, damn funny luh...
then, we packed up.
yadadada~

on my way to mac, i felt something was amiss.
I look and look.
then finally remembered!
MY BALLET SHOES STILL IN SCHOOL!
AH SHUCKKKKKS!
if lost, i really will get kena!
LOLs...
if any kind soul dancers have seen it lying somewhr, please tell me?
I'd really need it by tml for the dance :/

I'm so nervous to perform infront of the seniorrrrs!
Idk if i can memorise all the steps!

Okays, i needa go and do my Home ec design brief!
Sayonarahhhhhhs!

i can't believe that you're the one i've chosen.
the one and only for me,
to accompany me to walk down my lonely road.
and as days go by,
i know we'll soon part.
but at least give me a sense of belonging,
and the sense that you meant that you really love me.

我爱你不是爱给别人看
所以你为什么要管别人怎么想？

2008-08-26T05:07:00.001-07:00

JOKES!
READ THE TEXT FIRST
Airport Security: What's your Name?
Passenger: Batman
Airport Security: Your real name please.
Passender : My name is Bat-Man.
Airport Security: Are you trying to be funny? What is your family name?
Passenger: Superman.

"Airport Security handcuffs him & puts him into a locked security room
Then they checked his Passport..."

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Break-ups & make-ups.

2008-08-26T03:19:00.000-07:00

Didn't really did anything but I was so happy today!
Finally someone stood for the Chinese teacher.
I mean not by the teacher's side, ...
is by our side!
HAOHE YOU'RE MY HERO!
he just shouted infront of the teacher's face when she was scolding us,
he just said

" You come here is teach or scold one? All you know is scold scold scold. If you
want to teach, teach the guai one lah! Let the rest talk! You don't want
teach then go back china lah! "

Oh it's such a good thing this came out of my chest!
everyone in class was SO SO HAPPY!
HERO HERO HERO!
then, i also stood up, but i didn't think anyone heard me.
But huiluan & Xiaojing did.
I told the teacher,

"Teacher come here only know how fuck fuck fuck. WTF lah? Just teach luh!
Stupid bitch."

I think teacher heard, cos she glared at me.
then she ask nicholas go out, cos he provoked her.
she scold scold scold, then nic don't want to go out.
I remembered i told teacher to shut up, and don't blame the innocent.
Really, who cares about what she is teaching?
Everyday in class, we never learn chinese, we learn how to scold ppl in chinese :D
Even some guais also are on our side!

WAHKAKAKAKA!

After school, went to buy a hamster for Enrui.
We were choosing choosing breed.
Then, finally chose a Pearl breed (:

Brought it to his house by cab (:

And then, played with his Hamsty!
tried to put the Pearl inside the cage, but the two hamsters fought!
OMG?!
And when we wanted to take Pearl out,
Hamsty ran away! He is hiding somewhere in the corner of Enrui's hse.
We tried to lure him out, but can't!
Probably wait till he gets hungry, then he'll come out for food.

But overall. Today was a fun day!
Cleared some doubts too!
AND I'M PROUD TO ANNOUNCE I'VE FINISH MY LITERAURE PROJECT!
YAY-NESS!

I love being by your side,
Even if it means just as a friend,
I love you and I want to be with you.
My heartbreak's worth supporting you.
My pain is worth seeing you laugh again.
I'll never actually tell you this.
I'll let you figure it out.

I'll still be by your side.
No matter what,
I'll never go a different way,
I'll be there for you-anywhere-anytime-anyday.

{/Edited.

AND OHYEAH! I LOVE MY BANGGGS!
3 MORE DAYS TO THY HOLIDAYYYYYYY! GOGOGO!

I'm so so so random!

2008-08-25T05:19:00.000-07:00

Forget the times he walked by, Forget the times he made you cry,
Forget the times he spoke your name, Remember now your not the same.
Forget the times he held your hand, Forget the sweet things if you can,
Forget the times & Don't pretend, Remember now he's just your friend.

P.S: I'm so random all of a sudden!

early dimissal! 12 pm (:

2008-08-25T01:32:00.000-07:00

My boiling tube experiment ;D

Okay, now I'm getting quite used to this fringe-style.
even though it's SO stupid.
I'm so KIDDDDDDY!
but i miss my old fringe! ):
hmphs.
i know i'm thick-skin (:

in school nothing really happened.
started with mr kong crapping about friday's cross-country. yadada~
then is music (:
sang apologise & way back into love.

then is fucking maths lesson.
ms ong crapping about some shit stuffs.
didn't really care about her.
she said if i didn't go to her holiday class she'll call parents.
it's like, WTF? i have dance!

later then was science,
did experiment ;D
FUNNNNNS!
then early dismissal!

after that went to mac and ate mc wings (YUMMY!)
caroline & peeps were playing dare, so i also went to see.
was like damn funny!
they ask the boys to go and get numbers from other sch girls.
and then, ask cecilia and peising to ask some boys for "stead".
was like damn fun ;D

went tree house next,
had fun on swing.
played with some 1/1, 1/2, 1/3 boys and my girl peeps.
ppl sabo-ed.
cecilia & andre,
then peising & leroy.
Then guess what?
I've been too, with idiot benson.
(NO OFFENSE BENSON!)
they played blind mice
hid behind us girls for protection, cos we weren't playing (:

yahs, then went home lurhs...
that's all folks ;D

i've been finding an excuse to try to get you out of my mind.
i've tried all the possibilities to make you hate me.
i had ignored you,
picked a fight with you.
but i just couldn't take it.
i've been counting the days since all of this happened...
a few more months and it's just goodbye ):
couldn't bear it.
if only you knew how you much you meant to me,
if only you could see the reasons behind all these quarrels.
and i even tried to hate you, but i realised i just couldn't...

i just cut my fringe!

2008-08-23T01:21:00.001-07:00

BEFORE

AFTER

Don't i look like a nerd now?!

boredom!!

2008-08-22T23:46:00.000-07:00

ily darlingg (:
eventhough i know that we can't be together.
but if you need someone to share yr feelings to.
i'll be there for you.

if you need someone who cares for you.
i'll show you what love can do (:

just call me if you need someone to hear your troubles.
Just call me and i'll make yr day.
When the nights are getting cold & blue,
when the days are getting hard for you.
I'll always be there by your side.
I promise you i'll never hide.

baby,i'll love you forever .

dance dance dance!

2008-08-22T05:37:00.000-07:00

WOW!
It's so tiring today.
danced danced danced :/
nothing to blog about really :/

but eventhough, I still have to entertain!
I can't dissapoint myself!
So hey!

Today,
i had the maths test...
It was quite easy!
Starting I thought was difficult, then, easy!

你有没有对我一点点心动？

爱我的话，
给要回答，
我在等你等你一句话。

everything's back to normal,
but still why can't i feel the friendship we said we wanted to keep?
why do i still feel like a dagger stuck in my heart?

I've always pictured love the way i always pictured angels to be.
cushiony, full of hope, dependable.
i guess i thought i was wrong.
it's the opposite.

But to me, you're still my angel.
And i can't believe we'll be parting ways next year.
Everytime, i see you smile.
it was so blissful.
and everytime i see you cry,
it felt so hurtful.

those hurtful words you told me,
are no match to the hurtful things you DONE to me.
all this time,
nursing a broken wound, i thought you'd be there for me.
but in the end?
you left me halfway-ed stitched up.

everything kept repeating itself...

today i had quality time with xiaohui (:
she's so darn chio okay?!
her singing is also FULL MARKS!
i sang sang sang today with her, my voice gonna dissapearrrr!
HELP?

am i suppose to cut my fringe?
i don't want to clip it up.
if so, i really have to relook like the person i looked before.
but hey, new images, old images.
everyone's trying to change their looks, setting new trends.
But still, it's a waste after i kept it for so long :/

XIAOHUI IS MY LOVE-LY!

iloveyou&youloveme; or just an illusion?

2008-08-21T03:39:00.000-07:00

all it takes is just a question,
and just an answer from me.
was is so difficult?

today's day was quite horrifying!
peising & suntha work table caught fire!
was like, smoke everywhere.
and i suddenly was so nervous lah,
cos nicholas's asthma acting up.
scary whooo!~
i helped nic and sebast with their dishes.
their's turned out fine, but mine is PIPI GUGU!
quite wierd, but fun...

then had history balhhh.
on the topic of internal & external threats.
wasn't really dreaming.
i was building sandcastles in my head (:

english,
found out something shocking!
Ms Low is our co. Form tchr!
WOW!
then did summary thingy.
i was singing.

Maths was next,
but WHO CARES?!
i was still singing... (!)

then assembly.
i loved the skit.
was on crime prevention (:

went mac with peising,
had sundae.
the guys also went, the bunch,
nicholas, johnathan, andre, suntha & arjun.
zzz. i was like queueing up and they just push nicholas towards me.
WTFFFF?!
zzz.

so sian...
and i made great success!
PHASE ONE COMPLETE.
first day in school without the heartaches.
okay have, but subsided a little bit (:
i didn't cry today, great achievement!

it doesn't really matter if WE won't happen.
it'll only matter if WE try.
i don't even care if it doesn't work out right.
all that matters is that i love you, and you love me.
but do you?
i've been asking myself over & over again.
you've treated me differently, and i didn't know what you've become.
"Just friends", well i can handle that.
But the truth is i can't.
Kaimin kaimin, you're suppose to stay strong!
How come you had become a coward?!
Words rang in my head
Illusions were made.

I wanted to die,
but the reason i live was you.
YOU made me realise the meaning of life.
YOU made me feel what it felt to be in love.
YOU made me love you.
and you've changed previously to fit my expectations.
but you've becoming back to what you were last time.
a damn pervertic porno physco fucker guy, that i am still loving.
WHY AM I SO WRONG?!

i'm all brokened.

2008-08-20T04:35:00.000-07:00

this is so frustraiting,
one you said you love me,
then left me all alone right now,
in a corner, rotting.
what had i done to deserve your kind of punishment?
i've always thought that you would be different,
yet you all are the same.
a kind.
and i'm left alone, to cry, to die, to mend my heart again.
it's hurting and it's killing me.
i'm never going to get myself into this kind of tangle anymore,
i'm never going to LOVE again.

today was quite boring.
but all i have to say first was:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BAOBEH LITONG!
YOU'RE HAPPY 13!

there was dance, very fun.
the school today was boring.

i just found out that we'll be dancing for the school on teacher's day.
it'll be the second time :/
zzz, i'm going to rot.

i tried not to cry in class, during mother tongue.
but it just happened,
no one saw it anyway (:

got mad today, singing "teardrops on my guitar"
i think kinda suits my situation now (:

okay gotta scoot,
needa buy the igrediants for tomorrow's home ec. exam !
and double, !

drew talk to me,
i fake a smile so he won't see,
what i want, what i need.
and everything that we should be.

iloveyouiloveyou,
i don't know if you still do love me.
it's just that no matter what i'll still be there.
and when you said your last few words
"we can only be friends", i swore i could not even stand.
but as life goes by, i'm gotta move on.
maybe someday, i'll become successful and forget about all this happenings (:
but still, so long & goodluck.
and do remember this fool who still loves you.

botanicgarden dance!

2008-08-16T07:06:00.000-07:00

My before picture. Before all the make-up (:
dancers putting on make-up !
My afters (:

CHARMAINE!

xiaohui chiobu (:
me and kaijuan camwhoring in the dark. can't see us right?! ;D

today's dance was a blast!
we practiced in sch and yadada such.
then went on bus to the trip!
botanic garden was the destination.

charmaine called me when i reached there.

first thing when we went there was,
MAKE-UP!
eye liner, eyeshadow and blusher.
was quite fun.
i thank xiaohui for helping me put the eyeliner!
i was gundu.
i put the mascara myself ;D
i think our sch's make-up was most natural (:

peising & kaijuan were wearing contacts hahs!
first timers.
had to help (:

i camwhored (:
with lots of peeps.
really had fun (:

then the performance...
nervous, i had butterflies in my stomach!
but when i went on stage, i had fun!
didn't really felt that nervous.
just, danced! ;D
i would say that,
CCKSS DANCERS DID A WONDERFUL JOB!
my dance family (:

then after that, went to mac for dinner with my dance partners .
i ate mc spicy, both ate mc chicken.
helped them to take out their contacts.
i had a difficult time to tae their's out .

kaijuan ask me do this quiz :/

2008-08-15T20:08:00.000-07:00

a)people who haved been tagged must write their answers in their blog
b)tag 8 people to do tis quiz n those who are tagged cannot refuse.these people must state who they were tagged by and cnt tag the person whom they were tagged
c)continue tis game by sending it to other people

-01)if yr lover betray u,wad will yr reaction b?
nothing. i won't show anything on the outside, but cry on the inside :/

-02)if u can have a dream come true,wad would it b?
hope that his problems will all fade away.

-03)wad will u wan yr dream wedding b lik?
never thought so far before.

-04)wad is yr ideal lover lik?
funny, cute, & how would i know? if i like him, i like him.
he just have to make me laugh a few hours straight.

-05)which is more blessed?
Friends. without them, i wouldn't be on my own two feet.
i go to them when i have problems (:

-06)how long to u intend to wait for someone to love u?
i don't intend to wait. until the time is right,
there is suppose to be someone who will love you.

-07)are u confused as to wad lies ahead of u?
yes. confused as what you are talking about.

-08)if the person u secretly lik is already attached, wad would u do?
nothing? there is nothing i can do.

-09)is there aniting tt has made unhappy these daes?
yah, his problems.

-10)is being tagged fun?
yeaps. so ppl, tag me! my tagbox is rotting! :/

-11)how do u see yrself in ten years time?
a successful dancer, with a nice boyfriend. perhaps?

-12)who are the most important people to u?
there is alot. but he is one of the important sources (:

-13)wad kind of person do u tink the one who tagged you is?
with a motive to tell me something?

-14)would u rather b rich and single or married n poor?
i want married and rich!

-15)wad is the first ting udo every morning?
wake up?

-16)would u giv all in a relationship?
yes. what it takes to make him happy.

-17)if u fall in luv with two person simultaneously,who wolud u pick?
i will never fall in love with two.
that's a crime!

-18)wad type of fwenzdo u lik?
those who treat me the way i am.
and who love me the way i'm suppose to be.

-19)wad type of fwenz do u dislik?
betrayers, attention seekers.

TAGGING.

peising
charmaine
yixiu
chelsie
jielin
nicholas

i seriously don't know whose name to write :/

dancedancedance

2008-08-15T18:54:00.000-07:00

gah,
dance practices are wearing me out!
later on at 11.40am i need to report to sch!
i'm having the botanical gardens' dance.
nervous-ness!
and fyi, i suppose the blogger post will write today as 15 aug, but it's 16 aug okay? ;D

will update more here on the insider's, of the dancers of cckss after the performance.
so watch out!

i have to pretend to don't care,
even when i do.
the ignorance you gave me,
made me a different person.
but i have to cope with that until yr downs are over.
i'll stand by you.
i'll wait for you no matter what it has instore for me.
because, i really love you.

hyped up for action!

2008-08-12T00:53:00.001-07:00

Okay, I'm alone at home.
Morning just paid for class tee, and i felt...
nothing?
Man, lots of people want to cancel their orders.
But it is like, we ordered,
last minute tell the shop we don't want?
they already started on saturday!
zzz, nehminds.

tuesday, after a national holiday.
i guess blog about every lesson okay? (:
Let's go by schedule,
hmmm...

{MATHS}
effing maths tchr.
what do you think you are?
all you know is scold scold scold.
you said what?
1/6 is a rotten bunch of shit?
& still,
beat around the bush say that WE are UNGRATEFUL.
who do you think you are?
the goddess.
FAT HOPE.

okay, so Ms ONGGGGG was teaching the graph & coordinates.
FINALLY!
she doesn't even know how to explain well luh.
I'm much better than her.
WAIT!
My tuition tchr is better than her (:
talking about this tchr make my blood boil. RAWR!

{GEOGRAPHY}
haha!
slacking time!
nicholas that insensative sick bastard was playing with haohe (:
they are well, sorta gaying around?
or wait, was it with suntha?
I'll never know...

{MOTHERTONGUE}
WEETS!
LET'S CELEBRATE!
she didn't even came.
the relief tchr came and said some shit about our class being noisy, yadadada.
but hey, who cares?

{SCIENCE}
wahahaha!
It's practical day!
no theory, whoohooo!~

so, i went to sniff the effing ammonia.
i nearly fainted.
i guess i wasn't sniffing, i was breathing in the nice smell.
hey, i thought it has no smell okay?
who knew it stunk?

did few experiments,
i think i forgot what tchr say.
ammonia hydroxide + hydrocholric acid = ?
i just remember it was some chemical + water
gheeee.

{ENGLISH}
had a test today ):
But I'm sure i'll pass.
it was quite easy.
so, please no disapointments!

ghee.
me, nicholas, haohe went to mac for lunch.
i didn't eat anything.
except some fries from nic (:
i didn't really want to cope alot.
cos previously, i used to take one whole chunk.
now i'm starving!

went to the swing playground.
saw bunch of gangsters there smoking.
i was like saying "let's go, let's go"
haohe was like "who cares?"
so in the end stayed, but the gangsters sorta talked with nic.
cos he took their swing :/
SWING NIAH.
it's not like they bought it or anything, right?!

then we went pond, did nothing.
the boys pretended pokemon ;D
throwing flowers at each other.
LOL,
pathetic.

now i'm at home, boring soul.
sitting on a chair, waiting for someone to call.
life is soso boring.

It's a cruel world
so conventional,
sometimes love just wins you over.
i've come to life it's true,
it's not intentional;
everytime when we move closer.

i've always thought that when my mum brought me to this life,
it was a 1 in a million chance.
yes, this fact is true.
but what if i wasn't born?
would things still be the same?

wind back to the time when i didn't met you.
wind back to the time when i was in primary school,
erase all the mistakes i've done.
wind back to the time when i'm still in daipers.
wind back to the time when i'm in my mum stomach.
wind back to the time when i didn't even existed.
would things be the same now?
you would have met another girl, and i would be somewhere in the atmosphere.

sometimes, things are just not meant to be forced.
take prostitiution for example.
why would they want to do this kind of dirty job?
it's not because they wanted to.
90% of them aren't willing.
they are either forced by families, friends, or loansharks if they were in debt.
or they didn't have the money, and have to feed their family.
some actually wanted to get out of this and lead a better life.
but they can't.
People form the outside will never even think to give them a second chance,
when they really needed it the most.

every life is like this,
we live it, we choose our own paths.
the obstacles?
well, we'll just have to bear with it.

i fake a smile so he won't see.

ohmytians.

2008-08-09T22:35:00.000-07:00

done up pretty a new blogskin.
okay, so not much of the credits are to me,
that's why i left the credits untouched.
but hey, i did some change yadada and stuffs.

just now huiting babe smsed me,
asked me if i wanna go out to kbox.
wahseh, it's been long since i went there.
it'll be much fun i know (:
but no one has the membership card!
gahs, fustriating.

eeeks.
my hp is gonna get confiscated!
tell me what am i suppose to do?
it was just a little overdose of outgoing calls.
okay fine, it was alot.
but why must my parents do this to me?
I'm still a kid, !
changing my line to a prepaid will be worse!
how would i know my bill will exceed their expectations?
okay to say out, my bill was $141.
i was shocked too!
ROAR.

I want to go and watch the Mummy.
need to see if the irritatables are free nots (:
gosh, i hate holidays.
i mean, i don't get to see my friends.
and i don't get to see nic much, can't crap with him anymore ):
but on the brightside, i don't need to see those teachers :D

i suppose on monday i'll get my new number.
look out for it.
URGH, thinking of prepaid makes me want to go to a corner and emo.
but i can't, i promised not to.

doesn't really matter what the other's seeing,
cos i'm in love with the inner being.
doesn't really matter what they believe,
what matters to me is you're in love with me too.

will blog later yah?
BYE (:

national day!

2008-08-09T18:48:00.000-07:00

wooots!
oh the colours of the fireworks, how fascinating?!

ysd's sch national day was AWESOME!
especially seeing all my dearest marching so focuse-ly(if this is a word?)
man, they were really darn good!
my dearest darlings, hope you all didn't overwork! (:
but all of you did a great job!
jermaine twinny, you were so good!
you said you were nervous, but still you did well!
wanted to take a photo of nic in his scout uni,
but he ran away. LOL.
but still, he looked quite good (:

then the CCKSS idol, aliff won.
LOL!
i thought michelle was the best?!
but i think because aliff only sec 1 luh, so they bias.
but heck, i am michelle's supporter!

i got dance during that day!
wth?
but well was quite fun (:
learned new steps.
i was selected to go botanic garden's dance.
WOOTS?
but i wanted to stay in sch, and perform.
well, wth?
since me, and my two dance partners(kj & ps) is with me,
i'll go anywhere (:

it's so much fun being around you.
and yes, finally we had the courage to face the wind.
thanks for being there with me so so much.

the national day celebration was damn awesome.
i mean the real NDP 08 parade!
i was looking and looking for my cousin who was marching.
well, didn't really see him.
but i saw his UG, SCOUTS (:

love the fireworks.
awwww, reminds me of the first time i saw it.
i was scared to wits end.
hahs (:
but no fear, as i grow older, i had become more common sensical.

darling you don't know how much you mean to me.
you're still better than the rest.
and even though you're not here 24/7 with me,
i know you'll always have a place in my heart forever & more.
baobei, wo ai ni.

ilyilyilyilyilyily

2008-08-07T02:40:00.001-07:00

through the times and hardship and all the quarrels,
through the silly games and fights,
you've made me realised that you are the only one that can make me rise from my fall again.
you gave me courage to regain the strength i have lost in love before.

but why, do you sometimes have to be so foolish?
to make up quarrels when you knew my weakness.
or was it just me? being petty and wanted things to go my own way?
you've always cheer me up, no matter what happened.
whether it was your fault or mine, you'll be the one to apologise.
i guess i'm just thick-skinned.
but the guilt in me kills.

i don't care what others might think,
i just care about us, us, us.
baby, you light up my life, and i wish to continue this journey with you.

i still remembered when you told me :
"I wouldn't hate you no matter what you do."
it moved me, and to say, i'll never hate you too.

i've realised you are an important source of my life.
like water, air and food.
to think that we've gone so far.

iloveyou(:

lols, random yeah?
hahs (:
ysd, went to esplanade to see performance.
went with the whole dance peeps!
WOOTS.
nice luh,
introduction to contempary dance and classical ballet.
they danced so gracefully and no other words can be used to their performance other than it.
okay, so fabulous is a'ight (:

today,
nothing really happened luh...
okay, i'll stop here.
bye!
tomorrow national day celebration!
WOOTS!

STRIVE FOR SINGAPORE!

time flies...

2008-08-01T03:49:00.000-07:00

things have gone truely the way i wanted it to turn out (:
which is such a blessing,
but there's still more to go on.
like so, life has to go on :DD

wahahaha!
today, have lots of fun.
i went for the cultural feast - eurasion wedding.
Mr low was the groom, and miss maz was the bride !
awwwh, and ms maz was wearing mrs. marten's previous wedding's dress.
was so nice okay?!

practically, i went crazy singing "I need you"
nice okay this song?

i love jielin my mummy !
she was threatening nicholas luh.
funny hahs!

sunami! :D

2008-07-27T02:29:00.001-07:00

Oooooh.
i love my cats, i can't believe i'm only posting their pictures now.
sorry, mostly sunami's pictures.
but there's a group photo which sully and baby caught the eye.

here it is :DD

Darling Sunami (:

i did some editing of the lighting in photoshop so sunami will look godly, and i guessed it worked. awww. doesn't she look cute? ;DD

innocent sweet sunami. I'll always love you <3>

party party !

2008-07-26T19:32:00.000-07:00

today was fun! :D
but i hobbled around everywhere with a sprained ankle ==
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEBAST & MINGHUI!

so went or sebast's party.
alot CCKSians were there.
but there are 3 primary sch mates (:
if i rmb they are : Jiewei, royston and preston

wentPIZZA HUT (!) for lunch.
suprisingly, i ate very little o.O
i lost appetite luh, for some reason?

then went to arcade.
waseh! the guys very hiong siah!
play play play! and they booked the car race place for like an hour?
they were playing playing, top up, play play play.
i played little, but i liked the gun game :D
i think the game is interesting with the bunny with the chainsaw.
i played with nicholas, jason and timo.
then, went to blk 8 play basketball...

went to treehouse.
then play swing.

after that nothing much really happened (:

at night, talked on the phone. conferenced -
it was like damn wierd.
zzz (!)

okays! GOODBYES!

Everyday I have to hide a big secret .

hip-hip hurrahh!

2008-07-22T04:10:00.000-07:00

NICHOLAS, THANKS FOR THE SECOND VOODOO! <3

hellos peeps!
today, overall was alrights.
except, i quarreled with him again ):
but patched back a few periods later.

Maths was first period,
Ms ong was teaching & me and nicholas were quarreling, as usual.

Geography,
Mdm. Siti taought me and nicholas were too noisy :\
Changed our seating arrangement!
WTF?
I was like, who gonna crap with me now?
then Mdm. Siti said "It's jus for this period."
my face lighted up. and i swear nicholas did too (:

recess, nothing happened.

Mother tongue.
teache finding the real culprit who stoleher hp.
Seriously, don't act lah cher, you look like a dumbass.
haish, me & nic quarreled AGAIN.
but this time for alot of periods...

Science,
still on cold war with nic.
my science partner, aryanty <3
we crapped, and did experiments (:

lols. i can't believe it!
some ppl say nicholas was.....
handsome & hot .
Gosh! can't believe it!
gahhh... but he's all mine! JUST JOKING!

went lot one.
actually wanted to go BPP.
but then ...
it was late.

Do you know that your smile always makes me laugh.
You are so cute, when you didn't want to be.
I loved hearing yr voice every now and then.
I loved saying sorry to you, but it hurts deep when you said sorry to me.
if this ever continues, i'll really love you.

you've been with me for 7 months only,
but i feel that i've known you forever.
i swore i can love you forever.
when we quarreled, i felt heartbrokened.
when you were scolded, i felt demoralised.
when you're emo, i'm emo.
when you're happy, i'm happy.
you made me feel above the clouds.
i... i love you.

I'm serious, I can't live without you.

project!

2008-07-20T04:31:00.000-07:00

did our project at JunMing's hse.
we played instead of doing, but what the heck?
we still done it!

we started gathering at lot one.
waited for PeiSing,
in the end, found out that she's already at JunMing's hse.
gahhhhs... made us wait for her ==

me, nicholas & haohe were engrossed in playing the psp(s).
i was on bleach, nicholas on dynasty warriors, and haohe on GTA.
hahs. cecilia, peising and junming were well...
doing the project, and listening to music (:
but hey! i did SOME of the slideshows, didn't i?

i was too engrossed in bleach, obviously Rukia! :DD
I killed uhmmms, some of th char(s) i hated, they have an alter-ego in our class :DD
i felt sleepy so i took three jackets and closed my eyes,
awhile later, was disturbed by nicholas and his dyn w. game.

okay so,
overall, junming's hse was fun (:

then we went to BPP!
i and nicholas,
well... we sorta got some misunderstanding and quarreled.
somehow somewhat.
i wanted to buy a cup which shows his bleach alter-ego's face (byakuya:DD)
but they came in pairs with renji's.
so gave up on it.
then i thought of going minitoons...
so yahhh, cecilia and peising followed.
i bought a voodoo; expensive okay?!
then i flung it at you-know-who.
i ran to th toilet and started emo-ing.
okay.
then sorta kinda, me and nicholas made friends again.
cos of his smile which made me laugh.

then time to go home!

we walked back.
and nicholas father called him.
OMG, he's gonna get into some deep deep trouble!
i really hope he is aights ):

tomorrow is racial harmony day; anyone gonna wear ethnic costume? :DD

please be alright, i'm praying for yr safety ♥

Recaps!

2008-07-19T20:26:00.000-07:00

I'm not posting!
OMG!
Stay focus, stay focus!

Waiting for 11.40am; then I'll change into my outing clothes and head off!

Yesterday, had reat fun at JunMing's hse (:
obviously projects!
gahhs! I'm sick and tiredof th projects these teachers ae giving!
Can't we have hellofa rest? For goodness sake, treat us like students!

oh yeah, I'm gonna recap on friday.
hmmms. everything went fine.
duh, but after that, that MT teacher, go accuse Nicholas take her hp!
I was like, wtf? who wants to take her's.
Nicholas got his own!
then, Nicholas as like crying and crying,
and i was like, following him cry.
I can't help it!
I just felt like crying; he's sitting beside me, I'll get affected!
then, people went to comfort him.
arjun swearing infront of the teacher...
yeahs.
then guess what, mt teacher came back.
she is SENILE!
she found her phone in th staffroom on her table!
wtf?

back to yesterday!

after junming's hse,
went to lot one.
fund Nicholas there!
first thing it houghtwhen looking at him was "THAT JACKET?!"

okay, toodles.
I'm rushing late to meet Cecilia!
Byes!